When do we fail

What is failure ?

Aamir khan , Bill gates, Mark zukenburg are drop outs from colleges, Bharat Ratan master blaster sachin tendulkar failed in 10th class. Do we call them failures!! Why Not ? Why are they any different from other failures. Why do millions dream to be like these failures ?

The question that comes to my mind is when do we fail ?  Thomas Edison invented light bulb after 2000 trials when asked why did he fail 2000 times, he gave a wonderful reply, he said I didn't fail I just found 2000 ways of not lighting a bulb. what I mean to say is we fail when our self consciousness accepts defeat. We all want to pass, we all want rank, we all want to be renounced.  We pray for it, we work hard for clearing exams but why don't we ever ask ourselves "Do I deserve it" " have I done justice to my studies to pass the exams by just studying for clearing exams"

I am a CA student and have met many other students who JUST want to clear exams like me but just one who says 'what is the value of my CA degree if I can't do hedging taught in subject financial management, if I can't do capital structuring, consult people on mergers and acquisitions'. He is the only one who admitted that he deserves to flank in exams. he wants to fails, so that he could do things right next time.

Difference between them and most of us is very simple these people plan for long term and we short term. My aim is to become a CA no plans after that whereas their aim is to grasp knowledge so that it could help them in long term no matter the attempt they take to become CA.

I feel People really fail in their life when they don't introspect themselves and get themselves into wrong streams, when they stop reinventing themselves, when they stop enjoying their work.
Marks can't determine anyones fate, no doubt they are the indicators of knowledge however when a Grade F student considers this F as an stepping stone and takes its positively than they are not a failure, someday with this positive attitude they will achieve more than any other grade A student just like then Aamir, bill gates and many more.

Why don't I fight for things that matter me most

Why do I let things go. Why do i leave things on fate. Why do I think other than marks I don't have to work hard for anything else and everything should come naturally to me otherwise it would be fake. Why cant I make an effort to keep, please, to win over that person who matter a great deal in my life.

I m a person of belief that all things frdship, relationship, love should come naturally to a person. Making someone like u or falling in love with you is betrayal to them and yr ownself becoz u are not like that person who act in that certain way to please the other sex.

Their might be 2 reasons to such belief either you are lazy or you believe in such thing as fate.
Well both the reasons apply to me.

Sadly acting like this, I let go so many dear frds, family and loveones. Each time when someone exits my life I think only if I could have fought for them, if I had demonstrated my feelings towards them, I had showed my intend to be their forever, if only I had made them believe, they could be with me.

Long time has passed some decisions have been good some regretting. However even after so many experiences I still introspect myself, I try to understand where should I fight and where should I let go.

I understand I m human, bond to take wrong decisions but I still want to understand why don't I do what I say and stand for.why do I let the time slip away. Why do I accept defeat easily under harsh circumstanes.

One thing I have learned from my frds and my journey of Mumbai is until u try you can't reach your destiny. Unthing is free in this world, you have to ask for it and work hard for it, to truly have it. Therefore I have promised myself that I will be an active person and wil make every effort to keep that jem of person with me. Also I will not blame the fate for taking that love from my life. I myself is responsible my inactiveness and decisions. From now on I make my own fate or will die trying.